I've torn this place down several times over the years. Left nothing behind, not even a forwarding address. (Well, it deters the revenooers, don't it?) And there have been times lately -- within the last minute or two, actually -- when I dangled my right hand middle finger tantalizingly close to the DELETE IT button.
But... I know why I didn't kill Llewellen tonight. I know why I decided to save Timmy from Gila Monster purgatory.
I understand now why I gutted this place before and why I allowed it to live tonight.
But why is the toughest fucking question there is. It's existential. Primordial. And then there's the pain. There's always pain.
Therefore, if I simply give you the answer, it would be cheating. And I'd probably have to shoot you.
As you were.
As if there's another way you could be. I mean, really, c'mon.
7 months ago